Radiation

 Let me just say.....RADIATION SUCKS!!!!!!! I have to go Monday - Friday everyday for 5 weeks.

 Yesterday was my first of 25 treatments. I was scared to death and the only thing I was looking forward to is it being over.  It blew!!!!! I was so tired I could barely get out of bed, and I was sick. I couldn't eat but was vomitting, so we all know how that goes. Today my throat feels raw and I'm still tired. I hope I can make it. They said it shouldn't make me sick, but it's different for everyone. Also they told me yesterday not to lose ANY weight from now until at least a month after the treatments are over. WHAT???? If I can't eat and vomit how am I suppose to maintain my weight, and futhermore I don't want to maintain this weight. This morning I was 235lbs, I really wanted to be 200lbs by the end of this year. Now I feel defeated. I FREAKIN HATE RADIATION!!!!! And brain tumors for that matter. I know that all of this is part of God's plan for my life and that he already has it worked out and that I have to keep my faith in Him, but that doesn't make it suck any less.

 On a happier note, I couldn't be more proud of husband, he was ordained as a deacon Sunday night. He has come a very long way.